New York City is an expensive place to even breathe in. I knew that when boarding the plane destined for the great city, which is why I didn’t plan on buying much stuff while there. Having just returned from a two-month sojourn in France and with all the flying I’ve been doing with interview season, I just couldn’t justify a shopping spree. I only brought carry-on pieces with me, packed to the max since I was going to be gone for a week, so that I wouldn’t be tempted to buy anything.
My plan didn’t work all that well. While I didn’t purchase many clothing items, I did fall in love with Lush. My old college roommate is a big fan of the store, so I sampled all of her facial cleansers and beauty cremes while staying with her in NYC. Unfortunately, that store isn’t priced for those trying to spend on a budget. I did purchase some facial scrubs and conditioner from Lush, but only after much internal debating and aggressive persuasion from the salesgirl. I’m not one to dish out much money on personal items, and it clearly showed in my uneasiness as I was walking from the store. Then when my friend asked me if I wanted to go see the latest Harry Potter, I bemoaned how expensive movie ticket prices are in NYC.
Which prompted my friend to quip, “I never knew how cheap you were until this trip.”
Her comment really cut deeply. Was I truly cheap? Since I’m not taking out student loans and am living off of my father’s good graces, can I be blamed for thinking about how much I was spending everywhere I went? Plus, with another big trip to either Argentina or Vietnam this Spring, my brother has been harping about how I should be saving. Even my parents have made a comment or two about my spending to him, especially since I’ve been vocal about my desire to go back to France a.s.a.p.

{via Confessions of a Shopaholic}
My family is by no means rich, very far from it, but my parents work wonders with budgets and have been able to pay for my schooling. It is super nice to not have any debts to pay off when I graduate in a few months, but sometimes I wish I had taken out loans like all of my friends. I realize how absolutely ungrateful and spoiled I am, but sometimes I have to decline doing activities with my friends because I feel guilty wasting so much of my parents’ money. My friends have this mindset that since they already owes thousands of dollars in loans, what will a few hundreds hurt? So eating out everyday and buying their hearts’ desires aren’t out of their means, per se.
With this crazy notion of mine to become reasonably fashionable this year, I’ve been really learning how expensive clothes and good beauty products are. I guess that’s the price to pay to feel good about yourself and not feel self-conscious when young French boys want to feel you up. So if I can’t go to the nicest restaurants or decline invitations to go to the movies, does this make me cheap or budget-conscious?
Tags: shame